ALONE AND SORRY

I don't want the world to see me.
I do think they'd misunderstand.
I want to know love, same as you,
But I am scared of rejection,
Scared to see my reflection
Frowning back at me in the mirror.
You look at me, and I feel a tear
Falling alone down my cheek.
I feel the gun in my pocket.
My shoulder's popped back into its socket
And I grip the gift you gave me
A precious, beautiful locket
I pull out the cold steel gun
I think of how lovelessness
Affected me in my heart
I don't know why God
Ever put a heartless, lonely
Creature on this horrible planet
I think of how everyone hurt me
I check the revolver
It is loaded
I aim for my temple
Thinking of you
Then you run in, saying
What kind of games are you playing
I loved you once, I answer
But you hurt me
You say, I'm so sorry
I reply with a pull of the trigger
I see you now
Crying over my bloody, brain splattered body
You really were sorry